menarik pembacaan ku...

ngomong2 memang gampang kalau mahu punya pacar...tapi pikirin sejenak apa bisa aku benar2 cinta pada seorg pria sedang aku belum pasti benar2 cinta pada Allah dan rasulNya..

sedangkan sebagai mukmin, cinta hakiki dan abadiku harus hanya pada Dia, hanya Dia..pemilik segala kekuasaan...Dia itu abadi, tunggal, tidak diperanakkan atau jua beranak...

nafasku jeda...mana mungkin aku menyerah cintaku pada pria itu, sedangkan pada tuhan saja cintaku masih terkapai2..

lihat aja..

kapan solat aja pada akhir waktu...

kadang makan kagak sempat doa...hatta bismillah..

kalau berkerudung jua kagak pernah labuh..

kalau sarung kaki juga kagak pernah pakei..

kalau ngaji juga lagi bermalas-malasan...

kalau dengar pidato agama juga kagak mau

kalau itu yang aku bilang cinta pada tuhan....timbang aja sendiri...

bisa atau enggak ngatur langkahnya ke syurga..

dari cinta cintaan sama pria yg janjinya ngak2 itu...nih, baca aja al quran, kerna janji Allah itu pasti...

lagian indah bangat kan...

salam...

aha...hampir setahun tak mengusha blog aku yg pertame dulu..

"kuliah cinta illahi"..erm..that blog remain silent...and i spend most of time writing in this blog, a cup of lemon tea...tapi dlm hati, bkn niat nak biar blog tu camtu je tapi tak tahu nak letak pengisian ape di situ..so sebagai penyelesai masalah, aku malas la nak jd macm kerajaan turki yg pisah kan pentadbiran dan agame, so ape2 pengisian pasal agame yg aku tahu lepas ni pun akan di muatkan di blog aku yg 1 ni jugak...ok la kan..sambil berseronok, kite beramal sekali..mostly bukan hanye utk kebaikan pembace tp jugak kebaikan diri penulis ni jugak..ye la...aku just manusia biase, bkn malaikat atau sesape pun...(yg ni lari dr topic ye)

macam yg lain tahu jugak, currently aku in the end posting exam syndrome....aiyo, masih sempat lagi blogging nih....saje je, just wanna release some pressure in the brain..hehe...mane idaknye..aduyai, tgk manipal tu, sikit la punye tebal....poning kepale den ni ha...exam kite org will start on monday next week...Ya Allah, semoga dapat pt yg boleh beri kerjesame....jgn la mcm hari tu, bile tanye dgn makcik tu "makcik, kenape makcik msk hospital hari ni?" then that makcik jwp "ndak la aku tahu"erm...so what i wanna write in the chief complaint...then sebgi hadiah dari dr jerry, " ur question should guide the patients" ambik aku sebijik.yg boleh bt mase tu hanye senyum menampakkan baris2 gigi bak iklan COLGATE.hopefully that will never happen again..

what so ever, harap semua org mendoakan kejayaan kami...as usual, asal nak exam je, mintak maaf la dgn semua org..kalau ade aku terkasar bahase, tersilap laku ke..bcoz, just like what i say before, i just human...commit mistakes in almost every second..konsep taubat dan hidayah kan begitu dong...haha

tgk picture di atas...so sy mau sambung study....shh..sile diam ye...

salam..

currently, i just near the end of my third rotation, surgical junior posting(SJP) in sandakan...

erm..not bad....just become more and more lazy..haha...really lazy to on call not like when i in medical junior posting (MJP) before....spend most of the time, fb and Zzzz...aish...not a good doctor to be la.....

suddenly, mau jdi surgeon plak after through out this posting...wakaka...dont know why la, just like the slogan of surgeon "think nothings, do everythings"haha..am not kinda person like to think i guest...haha..what so ever, but one thing i notice la, most of the surgeons are men...mane all the doktor pompuan g ek??....cam biase la, all girl2 things la, jd anesthesiologist, obstetric and gynecologist, paediatrician and etc...mostly doktor perempuan wont enter into ortho or surgical, from my observation la,bt this i not really sure since i was posting in duchess of kent hospital, sandakan...erm...more to district hospital la, but their doctors really impress me....huhu..really like old friend.... maybe bcoz we going to work in the same field....

today, might be our last day for this posting since next week gonna be our study week in which we are no longer allow to play around the ward, they want to keep the pts in ward for our exam...huhuhu..i gonna miss 7.30 am round with mr Jeremiah..a really good surgeon, tell everythings and kind to the patients...gonna miss his word "makcik, diorg ini semua pelajar perubatan, mau belajar sikit dari makcik", why leh??, ermm..fair enough, some more???"really a humble doctor, i wanna be like him if i become a surgeon later, insyaAllah, korang doa2kan la yerk...hehehe..

i gonna miss all the doctors in surgical ward..all the mo and ho...dr hairul, dr yushairi, dr supi, dr samara, dr yazir, and also last but not less the really well known dr for our posting, dr johari....for him, i have no comment, what past already past...that for mo and for ho, dr shihab, dr helmi, dr, samira, dr azarisham, dr jeffery, dr lee, dr ng, dr miza, dr bong, dr hafiz, dr hidayati, dr azuan, dr alsudin and all la...aish..really to many...also all the nurses and students nurse....all the patient also, really kind to let us examine them...even sometime they really in pain because of our touch, bt still i really learn from them...

surgical posting really teach me sometime that life not gonna always be ok...take the example of 35 year old uncle who present with the enlarge liver....erm...35 years old, cant u imagine, such like my sister age, he was diagnose with liver cancer...already metastasize to lung and other organ...he currently readmit due to pleural effusion, yesterday, i saw a tube from the lateral part of his chest...poor to him, really young age, bt already diagnose with cancer, the treatment for him, only the palliative...it such a death end...

another story was, a young lady.....i dont know the chief complaint...when i went to the ward for ward round on the everning, i saw her already intubated...erm..her family meet the specialist, ask about her condition...the dr said ( what i remember)" kami tak boleh bt ape lagi, dia sudah mati otak, kamu bt la keputusan, same ade mau bawe dia balik atau tunggu dia meninggal di sini" suddenly all the family members cried....i was surprised, but as dr to be, maybe i need to teach myself not to cry anymore..just swallow it, even it gonna hurt me....enough i guest, i already cried during my MJP posting..i still remember, how hard to us to face the death and also to accept the death..maybe as the doctor to be, we only hard to face the death of our patient, bt how about the family members that need to accept the death...

beside, surgical also teach me that life is about something miracle..i saw a coma state patient that experienced subdural haemorrhage...he slowly recover...he start respond to the order by doctor, he was also previously in the ICU..currently, start to walk and talk like what he was before..isnt it a miracle....SubanAllah....

in surgical also, i have experience in operation theater ( OT)..i have assist a 4 hours major surgery,...total removal of the gall bladder due to gall stone.....at the time i dissecting the bladder....walawei!!,,,, really big2 stone la...how come he can tahan for such big stones for almost 8 years...aduyai....thank to dr Ng for helping me alot in that ot....for waiting and teaching me how to scrabbing....and even, i have take over most the procedure that he should done...sorry dr....(=_+)

and also, i gonna marah la all that women outside there, if u notice something different on ur breast, please and please dont wait to go biopsy.... aish...i call my mum that night.."mak, kalau ade rase berbijik2 kat payudare tu cepat2 la pergi jumpe doctor, jgn nak gatal gi jumpe bomoh la, pak imam la and what so ever" haha..really a marah mode la that time....why??..because one whole day i keep thinking why a auntie that presented with large malignant ulcer on her breast and Shortness of breath (SOB) cant keep for such a long time..her children told us that she already notice that there is a lump on her breast for the last 3 years bt keep reluctant to seek the medical treatment....she keep going cari the traditional medication...aiyaa, that makcik, why u percaye all the traditional medicine ni....go dr 1st la...u tinggal zaman bile?..zaman batu pun tahu jumpe doctor ma....(sori auntie, i bukan mau kutuk u, just to give pengajaran for other also)...so women out there, kau tua ke , ko mude ke..one u notice ade something diferrent on ur breast please go to dr, one it diagnose a benign tumor, br korang boleh tarik nafas panjang2 k...

lastly....i gonna miss my hubby la..hahaha...sape??..ui..rahsia...ala yg muke cucu kesygan nenek tu la...sapo laie....haha...