salam..
currently, i just near the end of my third rotation, surgical junior posting(SJP) in sandakan...
erm..not bad....just become more and more lazy..haha...really lazy to on call not like when i in medical junior posting (MJP) before....spend most of the time, fb and Zzzz...aish...not a good doctor to be la.....
suddenly, mau jdi surgeon plak after through out this posting...wakaka...dont know why la, just like the slogan of surgeon "think nothings, do everythings"haha..am not kinda person like to think i guest...haha..what so ever, but one thing i notice la, most of the surgeons are men...mane all the doktor pompuan g ek??....cam biase la, all girl2 things la, jd anesthesiologist, obstetric and gynecologist, paediatrician and etc...mostly doktor perempuan wont enter into ortho or surgical, from my observation la,bt this i not really sure since i was posting in duchess of kent hospital, sandakan...erm...more to district hospital la, but their doctors really impress me....huhu..really like old friend.... maybe bcoz we going to work in the same field....
today, might be our last day for this posting since next week gonna be our study week in which we are no longer allow to play around the ward, they want to keep the pts in ward for our exam...huhuhu..i gonna miss 7.30 am round with mr Jeremiah..a really good surgeon, tell everythings and kind to the patients...gonna miss his word "makcik, diorg ini semua pelajar perubatan, mau belajar sikit dari makcik", why leh??, ermm..fair enough, some more???"really a humble doctor, i wanna be like him if i become a surgeon later, insyaAllah, korang doa2kan la yerk...hehehe..
i gonna miss all the doctors in surgical ward..all the mo and ho...dr hairul, dr yushairi, dr supi, dr samara, dr yazir, and also last but not less the really well known dr for our posting, dr johari....for him, i have no comment, what past already past...that for mo and for ho, dr shihab, dr helmi, dr, samira, dr azarisham, dr jeffery, dr lee, dr ng, dr miza, dr bong, dr hafiz, dr hidayati, dr azuan, dr alsudin and all la...aish..really to many...also all the nurses and students nurse....all the patient also, really kind to let us examine them...even sometime they really in pain because of our touch, bt still i really learn from them...
surgical posting really teach me sometime that life not gonna always be ok...take the example of 35 year old uncle who present with the enlarge liver....erm...35 years old, cant u imagine, such like my sister age, he was diagnose with liver cancer...already metastasize to lung and other organ...he currently readmit due to pleural effusion, yesterday, i saw a tube from the lateral part of his chest...poor to him, really young age, bt already diagnose with cancer, the treatment for him, only the palliative...it such a death end...
another story was, a young lady.....i dont know the chief complaint...when i went to the ward for ward round on the everning, i saw her already intubated...erm..her family meet the specialist, ask about her condition...the dr said ( what i remember)" kami tak boleh bt ape lagi, dia sudah mati otak, kamu bt la keputusan, same ade mau bawe dia balik atau tunggu dia meninggal di sini" suddenly all the family members cried....i was surprised, but as dr to be, maybe i need to teach myself not to cry anymore..just swallow it, even it gonna hurt me....enough i guest, i already cried during my MJP posting..i still remember, how hard to us to face the death and also to accept the death..maybe as the doctor to be, we only hard to face the death of our patient, bt how about the family members that need to accept the death...
beside, surgical also teach me that life is about something miracle..i saw a coma state patient that experienced subdural haemorrhage...he slowly recover...he start respond to the order by doctor, he was also previously in the ICU..currently, start to walk and talk like what he was before..isnt it a miracle....SubanAllah....
in surgical also, i have experience in operation theater ( OT)..i have assist a 4 hours major surgery,...total removal of the gall bladder due to gall stone.....at the time i dissecting the bladder....walawei!!,,,, really big2 stone la...how come he can tahan for such big stones for almost 8 years...aduyai....thank to dr Ng for helping me alot in that ot....for waiting and teaching me how to scrabbing....and even, i have take over most the procedure that he should done...sorry dr....(=_+)
and also, i gonna marah la all that women outside there, if u notice something different on ur breast, please and please dont wait to go biopsy.... aish...i call my mum that night.."mak, kalau ade rase berbijik2 kat payudare tu cepat2 la pergi jumpe doctor, jgn nak gatal gi jumpe bomoh la, pak imam la and what so ever" haha..really a marah mode la that time....why??..because one whole day i keep thinking why a auntie that presented with large malignant ulcer on her breast and Shortness of breath (SOB) cant keep for such a long time..her children told us that she already notice that there is a lump on her breast for the last 3 years bt keep reluctant to seek the medical treatment....she keep going cari the traditional medication...aiyaa, that makcik, why u percaye all the traditional medicine ni....go dr 1st la...u tinggal zaman bile?..zaman batu pun tahu jumpe doctor ma....(sori auntie, i bukan mau kutuk u, just to give pengajaran for other also)...so women out there, kau tua ke , ko mude ke..one u notice ade something diferrent on ur breast please go to dr, one it diagnose a benign tumor, br korang boleh tarik nafas panjang2 k...
lastly....i gonna miss my hubby la..hahaha...sape??..ui..rahsia...ala yg muke cucu kesygan nenek tu la...sapo laie....haha...
ok dah habis merepek...cau dulu....mohon doanya ya bak....semoga 1 hari nanti dapat jd surgeon...and also a good dr dulu la.....
ur hubby??ehem..cm xagk2 je kn..hahahaha
nway mne nme aku?aku kn dh pimpin ko ke jln yg benar ngn jd leader ko..huhu..nway..group A mmg best..ngn kehadirn ko,yap,arif,k.tat,weibin,silvia n aku..mmg gmpk la group kte kn..best n happening sgt3..papepon..gd luck exam nnt..kenangn selama 2bulan bersama mu akn terpahat dihati ini..
good luck for your exams..
too bad (or your lucky) i'm not around..
i felt bad for this group..didn't teach you guys that much..i've personal problems to settle and i was not pay attention..and at the same time my emotion is labile..
i didn't report to the dean regarding the poor attendance during the morning round..i just "gertak" and thank God the attendance is much better after that!..
being a medical student and future doctor needs self motivation..no one will push you to study or seeing patients or doing clinical ward works..
it's just self learning with the guidance from your teachers..
Best of LUCK..and send my Salam to others!
adila albar: just play around la....gonna miss u also even we are housemate..hhahaha..good luck for the final exam..
dr johari: totally shock me...i will remember all ur advice...all of us, from my posting and the other posting like to thank u for what u already teach us...they send their regard too.....best of luck to u too...